My World of Dreams & Wishes-

Saturday, June 16, 2007
-1:33 PM-

Hey all! haven't been blogging for a very long time now.... so sorry... I'm really busy these days and probably because I'm starting to find squashing more fun than blogging too... well I really shouldn't abandon this blog cause I aspire to be a journalist and blogging would probably help me in journalism... in a way... well at least more than squashing. I find myself focusing more on my short term goals rather than long term ones... eg. I'm focusing on the sec2 squash competition and training real hard for it while I should be focusing on my carrer... ( a little far fetch but it's true). Anyway, enough side-tracking now. I just came back from bible study and I'm starting to feel that I don't fit in anymore. I mean... I can relate to them and all but I find myself sitting quietly in the corner listening to them.. GOSH I'm getting so anti-social now a days! Its like the only person I talk to now is anne and my mum. FULL STOP. Like for example in bible study today, most of the time I was just sitting there listening to hui wen, hui min, tracy and bryan talk. I mean... I didn't feel like I was part of their conversation whatsoever. Maybe I've been focusing too much on squash nowadays. My liking for squash is really near obsession. It seems like things that don't have to do with squash don't seem important anymore. My conversation with people mostly consists of squash thats probably the reason people stop talking to me after a while. I guess maybe I've been trying so hard to surpass rachel and nicole in squash that I've become oblivious to the important people and things around me. Well... it IS really hard to draw the limit between committed and obsessed you know. It's just as hard as drawing the line between having confidence and being egoistic. I guess I should spend some time to catch up with my friends a little bit more... after all I haven't been online for quite a long time now... but the thing I'm afraid of is that I'll start to lose my focus in squash and KABOOM! I'm at the bottom! It could be a little too dramatic but... you get my point. Ok... I'll start now... people who I need to catch up with: 1. Ruth Choy... haven't been talking to her for SOOOOO long now! 2. Mandy and Michelle... I've talked to them and all but haven't really met up with them yet 3.Mr Gay... I saw him at wilson!haha! but we didn't really talk... I wana get at least 1 point from him and claim that dinner which was rightfully mine! 4. My cousins...Seems like I've abandon for quite sometime now... how can I abondon family?! 5. Sarah and Hannah... haven't really been talking to them.... 6...I'm still thinking.... OKies... when school reopens, I'll try to catch up with these people... someway.. somehow... If I have not been talking to you for a long long long time and you feel that our friendship has drifted off somewhere far far far away, please do tell me cause I'll make time to catch up with you. Okies I guess thats all I wana post today.... Oh wait! 1 more thing... my mum heard from gavin's mum that Mr Tan is coaching him! Ok... maybe its not a big deal to you but... its just like having the SCGS coach an MG girl(or his case, an SJI coach coaching an AC guy)... its kinda... whats the word??? Betraying the coach.... isn't it? Maybe its just me and my competitiveness against SCGS...but I pity Mr Koh...nevermind... just disregard what I said... anyway, I gtg now... bye!

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